like splitting your heart and waiting for fairies to come out

Mary Oliver.
The Uses of Sorrow


Someone I loved once gave me
a box full of darkness.

It took me years to understand
that this, too, was a gift.

♥ i thunk that acting like betty is not for me. i will be veronica. betty is boring and she looks like a blood hound. and i will quit acting like my whole self esteem went down the drains. i think it's still intact. some people can just go to hell. and chris tells me i should not find time for pulubis. some people are emotionally and literally pulubi. kawawa naman.

i am not insecure but, there are people in the city who can make you feel blah. and come to think of it i am not blah cuz i feed myself and i shop for myself except those times when i am too needy i ask money from angelo. pero yun lang.

i hate some eejits in this city. insipid eyjots. yawn lang.

♥ gelo brought home some lunch. rice and lechon kawali. i mused that lechon kawali is supposed to taste garlicky, he said, it's supposed to just taste good. :)

God is ♥ despite the fact that i am harboring anger in my heart these days. i have no right to be angry man gyud cuz i got away from an impending ear infection and i am not too lazy to show up for work and i haven't been ill and i got thru pmsing and my sister will give birth and gelo and i will take care of my two sisters' babies early next year. it'll be fab. galit ako sa mga yagit sa mundo. kainesh.

pero He is ♥. ü

and so para masaya eto ang repost of the photos of bradgelina's twins. here!

crash into me. hike up your skirt a lil more and show the world to me. haha. ilurve this song!

lastly, in the essence of being frugal and being paranoid that i might not have any form of livelihood in the incoming months, it's been two days since payday, i haven't bought anything made out of metal, plastic, or cotton! :) down with consumerism. haha.

and i totally thunk gelo now looks akin to pax. haha.


love,
raeyna

i miss amapola afternoons with gelo. hay.