cuz it feels like july

I looked at the sky just to see what it felt like. I pretended I was pausing before telling him about the secret feeling of joy I hide in my chest, waiting, waiting, waiting for someone to notice that I rise each morning, seemingly with nothing to live for, but I do rise, and its only because of this secret joy in my chest.

miranda july, no one belongs here more than you

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looked for apartments for Chris' family after work today. we found two prospective places, the first one was sadly in its most dilapidated state unlike when i first saw it early this year, second one is on my street and is a 3 bedroom house with 2 baths, one that's made maybe in the late 80s with the crazy cat marble floor and a pretty medium sized chandelier, then the kitchen has a very low ceiling and it's located at the basement. who can live cooking in the basement? it's eerie. and the last place we were to check is rented. sayang.

my second sister would always try to jolly me out of my sour mood. i told her i lost weight cuz i don't wanna eat by my lonesome and i'm kinda happy at not eating too much and wanting to "act" like am plagued with some eating disorders. she tells me it's eeeeeew to lose appetite over one reason and tells me that she came up with ten things we hated about this person. i pretty much loved the item 3 cuz it says "he's thin and we're not, so discrimination!".. :)

they'll be here in less than 2 weeks. i am thrilled, i cannot wait.

there are unexpected people who hear me out lately. not that i really rant about it cuz i am normally like dut, but when i wear the longest face it's odd how guy friends who you honestly do not even count to make you feel a bit better are actually there. deduct teej cuz he is an ass most of the time when he wears this i told you so face.

at times, unexpectedly you become the center of the universe when you are miserable. people actually cooperate and put up with you to alleviate the exaggerated pettiness that is yourself. :)

naa ko jeepney going to sm late this afternoon and noticed that i actually have this fondness for this street everytime the jeep drives by on that location. i don't know the name of the street pero the architecture and the old houses are awesome. it makes you feel lucky to be living in this city.

andddddddd! sm is just a huge sea of faces. i don't like being blind.

at bongga si kuyo bob ong. may parting words.

"kahit ikaw ay parang bato na manhid at walang
pakiramdam, mag-ingat-ingat ka naman. dahil kahit ganyan ka,
hindi nasasaktan, kaya mo namang makasakit."

edits: happy 76th birthday jeremy. i don't ♥ you all the time, but i think i disliked johnny most often lately :) aside from work, thank you for always being the most present life coach and always untiring when it comes to giving counsel. You are (although you are already 76 years old) always level-headed, practical, and sound when you talk to me. hahaha. God Bless you and keep you.