days like this

What are you supposed to do with all the love you have for somebody if that person is no longer here? What happens to all that leftover love? Do you suppress it? Do you ignore it? Are you supposed to give it to someone else? 

I never knew it was possible to think about someone all of the time, for someone to be always doing acrobatic leaps across your thoughts. Everything else was an unwelcome distraction from what I wanted to think about.

After you'd gone - Maggie O' Farrell

i'd want this book. wut if the person you loved died bitaw? i think break ups and divorces are better than a partner dying.

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and so, i babysat kenji the whole day. suffice to say i lacked sleep. whilst trying to get some sleep, my nephew did the sweetest thing. he kissed me on my lips four times! and i was compelled to try to stay up rest of the day.

i fed him hershey's almond bar, some dunkin donuts, and fake onion rings. he wouldn't eat anything. so i gave him the happier stuff. :) my sister wasn't pleased when she found out.

nappy changes are daily disaster. i spanked him cuz he wouldn't behave while tita raen was struggling to put his diaper on.

i will not have kids unless i married a wealthy guy. period.
haha.

i even told Chris that i am gonna be a TO BE and not a TO DO. :)

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i had dinner with shiney at inaka. we ordered ebi tempura bento and ripe mango shake and california maki. the waiters already recognized me there. and were pretty nice to me. haha. nazel tells me we have to go there one of these days. so i guess, am going back. inaka has nice service man gyd. and food is good. and they serve instant coffee. haha.

so boracay is all set. :) i'm kinda scared of the thought that i'll be traveling alone. to iloilo. not that it's my first time to travel alone but, iloilo is not familiar waters. then again, i guess i'll do just great. it'll be just an hour's boat ride.

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parent and grandparent will be here this weekend. i won't be there when they come. am just too giddy for the beach and the island to even become a daughter and a granddaughter. :)

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and other than the lit quote, i'll end this entry with a song.
cuz today, i just told off someone i liked tons by saying the most idiotic thing. "no, the whole thingy was a rite of passage for me.."

pero shempre, it was an inis-sabay-sabunot-sa-sarili moment.

yawn lang.

God is good. good enuf to make dich more confused of the two jobs she'll choose from. when it rains, it's four gyd eh. haha.


keeping the face to the sunshine,
Raeyna.


♥
When you don't need an answer there'll be days like this
When you don't meet a chancer there'll be days like this
When all the parts of the puzzle start to look like they fit
Then I must remember there'll be days like this

♥
When no one steps on my dreams there'll be days like this
When people understand what I mean there'll be days like this
When you ring out the changes of how everything is
Well my mama told me there'll be days like this