so now..

Chris asks lunch early and i tell him am busy. wala judko angay to tell anyone am busy cuz it's easier to cope with the deliverable now. altho i miss having classes et al, i don't have to deal with the drama-rama of the travel account that comes along with every snow storms, airline bankcruptcy, and such.

it took a good 10 minutes for my pc to boot. kaloka. and every window i would open hangs. vaketch vantive god? may kasalanan naman akong ginawa?

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okay, some things can get really old. if magthrow man mo'g epileptic fits because not everyone wants to listen to your very fine opinion it's your call.

DILI IKAW ANG NAKIPAG LIVE IN ANG GINABEAT SA IYA UYAB. try seeing yourself in that situation and tell me how you wanna react. you don't just run away from it and not deal with it. people deal with their demons at their own terms. you don't have to rub it in cuz you're doing more damage by telling me that i am not listening. some people had to let things sink in to their systems before they can manage to get out.

and if you were ultimately born cynical about the stuff that goes wrong with life, which may eventually turn out to be right. i am not like you. so don't push things even if it were in the premise of friendship and caring, you are plainly being PAKI-ALAMERA AND SELF RIGHTEOUS.

quit acting like you are dr. phil. so if you please; ignore me. i know you have tons of things to do because you have a job. :)

thank you for the past couplah years. now we both finally know that we don't have to be friends. :)

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unta 5 am na. :)

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it dawned on me na wala ko Christmas present this year. i ended up asking emanuel for money(cuz i am poor like dut:) and told him i'll buy me present and i can buy him club sandwich from bob's. of course he tells me that it's not a fair deal.

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went home a bit late this morning cuz nazel and i bought booze. feelingera kaayo mi mag go boozing. lo-od kaayo tan-awon. haha.

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saw yuki this morning. she tells me they're all going to iloilo. informed her am planning to see boracay on the 21st. and we were all dancing with the thought that we might wind up going there together. sana matuloy. sana sana sana.

i kinda missed the people i became friends with when i started dating bernard matthew. it's odd how you stopped seeing friends when you stopped seeing the person you were once with.

yawn lang.

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naloka ko when am told that i did not follow instructions. sa tino-od lang how can i follow instructions when noone tells me wut to do? davah. some people in this city. tsk tsk.

love,
raen

There were so many of us who would have to live with things done and things left undone that day. Things that did not go right, things that seemed okay at the time because we could not see the future. If only we could see the endless string of consequences that result from our smallest actions. But we can't know better until knowing better is useless.
--John Green, Looking for Alaska