anywhere but here.....

slept with dichee last night, how odd can that be? it's her wedding night and the hubby had to work, we just thought that i could crash in on her place. ugtas to the max ang buntis because i kept tossing and turning. this makes me wonder how can i ever adjust to being housed in a pension house for a year....i've deep aversion to guest rooms.... i do not know wut scares me, bottomline am more comfy splaying on my bed-mites-ridden bed...hehehe.  

i got sooo attached to cebu over the years. i don't know if i can leave it. but, bacolod would be something refreshing, plus as kaith would put it, i can brush up on my ilonggo. Ü

i'm not sure whether i'd be relocating, i would need to hear word from THEM to ask me to come.... sighs....i wish i can make it before i go crazy.

wari had been the most unsupportive being with regards to the move. his sms would always be: don't go away i'll mishoo for sure/ k. ayaw hawa/ don't go....

wut's funnier is that he just called me raenybaby. yaks. soooo original......booh.

ang odd. my life is in cebu. and everyone i cared for is in ceboooo, nonetheless am hoping i could do this for myself, keep the distance, and as i told verlaine, bulok na maxado pagkatao ko dito....piyayaland might do me some good.

all i know right now is that i can pinpoint whutever it is that i don't like when am here, when am working, and wut i truly like or want out of life i cannot see....godi'minarut!

all i did today was sleep/ throw garbages/ some repairs ppl were making kumpini(colegiala voice riggy! hehehe) our bathroom and a part of the kitchen. ngayon pa, pa-alis nako.

shobe is literally ill. her eyes were yellowish. we're all alarmed. sana another round of false alarm na naman. things are somehow better these days, pa and ma, dich, the baby, and cpus, plus shobe...for the first time i am somehow liking the fact that my family is close by.... and yet, this is momentary. ang ending namin kanya kanyang buhay for the rest of the year until the holidays....

arg. growing up can be taxing.