learned that He takes commitments seriously; some months back i promised that i'd be frugal, however, wasn't doing anything about my keep, thus the yakisoba and nori days neverending...
yesterday i was hurting like a madwoman when ma and kenji left. each time a plane would take off(cuz from my place you can hear planes leaving or entering the city) i would burst into tears. (i know i can be pathetic like that- or apathetic like now-am sitting here wasteful of the time and not doing anything to help the queue-as there's 17 calls waiting and only 15 agents on the floor!!!boohoo!!!) albeit their stay was a good 5 weeks, it's way too short to get to know ma again and be able to correctly make milk for my piglet and change his diapers securely.//wonder if i'd survive moving to a different country-that'll be suicide then...currently, this is self-exhile...
when i got home yesterday, i know my place wouldn't be the same, kenji's milk bath overwhelms my washroom, his torn baby mat is sitting atop a chair, and any idiot can tell that a mother left traces of tidiness in my shoebox apartment. i couldn't be too sad, cuz then again i've yoga to do, and tuesday's payday! Ü
today, i am reminded that i may be spiteful of someone becuz i've yet to know humility, that once it settles into my systems, it would be easier to say i am sorry-am actually at fault. Nevertheless, it'll be hyprocrisy to say sorry when am not sorry at all. He will truly thwart my ways one of these days. Imber, caveat./////
digression: chin wrote an entry about her sister, out of curiosity i checked her profile, i'm certain that if i say SHE WRITES BEAUTIFULLY, i wouldn't do her justice.
God Bless everyone. He follows thru. :)
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fallen rain. (: