color me overwhelmed

Current mood:	calm
Current music:	bigger than my body

what's more unbearable now would be the hapdus pain i feel in my tummy rather that the odd feeling of betrayal i saw.. it was like pweh pweh pweh.. i feel like i did not have to deal with it anymore.. or in the first place wouldn't have to deal with anything like it.. after all, wut did i do to deserve such? again..pweh pweh pweh..

He would lay out the most acceptable ways of how i'd go about it..when i feel perplexed and crushed..but, this is not necessarily  to be the definitive of me as some ppl who might think knew me would apparently opine..

a sigh of relief..i feel okay.. after all long walks could make you okay..or maybe not..but, i am okay..

weekend was wonderfully overwhelming; some half truths and truths were seen and i'd to 'fess up to Him my supposed bad choices and ask Him to redeem..expectantly knowing that His grace is sufficient to make my halved ego pieced together again..
[altho,in the ordinaries of life i would still refuse to be extra kind to marge, or homer's boss, or the hog with a grinding hard drive-these creepy ppl whom i pray to God i'd never deal with or would never be near a square foot with them..nooooh...]
He will deal with me..and them..ha!

now, i will trust mandy moore..hehe.. take words at face value and do not read too much..and yes, after all kisses aren't promises and words aren't really signed contracts..

do not mind this entry..i wanted major rearrangements since last weekend and yet, i still deal with myself, the same way i dealt with myself at 22..

life issues i have none..come to think of it, i got me all the pretty things i wanted for this cut-off and managed to pay rent.. issue resolved.. who am i to complain when a 25 year old woman, somewhere in africa had to stake her life for the village's water.. why grumble? why hurt?

being unprepared to see things made me gasp for air and be open-mouthed wondering..oh no, wut went wrong?? and i could feel me quiver and i thought i would not be able to live THIS down..
thought wrong cuz i could.. i guess, when i feel bad about someone not being able to keep wut was promised or honor one's words..He would feel the same thing each time i promise Him my commitment..

i read that when we stray wut we would get would be wounds and bruises..at this point, there will be bruises no more.. i resolved things with Him..


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saturday night dinner at kiosko with czarina..purok steak was a treat; well done beef strips rolled into cheese served with gravy and pototaes.. the strawberry margarita did something to my systems, i had red blotches allover me..

ed's sms poked me to go to church, i ended up sinning cuz the gal who sat next to me sang loud-lee.. and instead of stiffling my laughter i smsd czar and told her about it..

czar celebrated her 23rd at hong kong kitchen.. we had beef and broccolli//fookien rice-the kind with unknown sauce with shrimps and veggies, shrimp dumplings, and seafood and corn soup..

greatness. ü

we then headed to lasalle for the guys' basketball game..we rooted for johnny's team..

czar and i proceeded to calea after the game and had fruit cheesecake(all sorts of berries) and kiwi granita..(like we were starved for days e?)

then the awful truth careened thru me..let em choose to deal with swines.. and they'd know.. 

then i asked her if we could buy booze..we headed to sorrento and decided we WALK our way to people's village and we were extremely upset at the thought of having to walk. nyahaha..
the misadventures of frida and penelope..

we slept 10 hours..

today, we got ourselves paperbacks from pcbs, paper soaps, investment lingeries-do not laugh, checked our non winning wrong queue lottery bets, had fast food, x-rays and blood drawn out from our arms.. this city is not soooo bad after all..