from some girl's LJ

 

swak na naman..

i'm not talking to lawrence. 

 i'm not talking to lawrence because i'm tired of trying to meet him half-way and then going all the way. 

 i've been thinking of writing him a letter. but every time i think about it i know i'm too hurt still. cause he dropped me. the thing i feared most in our friendship, the thing he promised he would never do, he did. and i shouldn't be surprised because people should never make promises that aren't completely in their control because those are the ones people end up believing the most whole-hearted-ly. i've been hanging out with other people, i've been watching a lot of movies, i've been not calling him.

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'you look different. you're eyes look different.'
'i'm not wearing any make-up.'
'that's not it.'
'i haven't talked to lawrence in three weeks.'

i miss him like crazy and i hate that he's made me believe that i need him.
he didn't even get me a fucking christmas present.

current mood: scared

(i had to screen this. i copied this eh.. hehe)